When God started leading me down the road of creating my own gratitude journal I thought “cool”. I’m always game for creating something new that can help me or make something better or more useful for me. I’ve also always wanted to write and share God with others.
But this was different.
Though I didn’t realize at first. As I worked on it He then said to add verses and create a journal so that others can use it also. That was a “Wow” moment.
Really cool, but so far beyond what I could do.
Yet with continued praying, adding and subtracting verses all 180 were complete. Then came the beginning and end pages. Then it was done.
I soon realized this was really just the beginning. This was the easy part.
There was definitely a learning curve to get it published. what size would it be, what type of cover, what would the price be. Since it was Print-On-Demand the cost wasn’t an issue. But I had to add author information and information on the journal so people could find it. All of this, although a lot of work still wasn’t the hard part. That came AFTER publishing it.
That’s when I needed to actually share it with people.
“What? You mean actually talk to people about it? Are you sure LORD? Can’t you just bring people to it?”
Oh that’s right, He said “Go to all the world…” He didn’t say “The world will now come to you.” I know, bummer.
What did I do?
So what did I do? I stopped.
Though there were posts on FaceBook and Instagram for a little while but with much difficulty and sporadic. So no I’ll just call it stopped. Because that is what I did.
I stopped following where God was leading. I stopped the plan He had given me.
As I was preparing to publish he gave me a specific plan on what to do after it published. God was leading. But I ran.
I felt like Jonah. Running in the totally opposite direction.
Stopped checking on the site. Stopped posting. Stopped talking about it. Stopped praying about it.
But God never gave up on me. I knew I was wrong. I knew I was running. I knew I was fearful.
I didn’t know how God would change my life. I didn’t know what the future looked like. I didn’t know everything. But God did. He kept drawing me.
No Fish Needed
When I finally came back around, thankfully without a three day hiatus in the belly of a fish, but with months of agonizing over it, I asked for forgiveness, thanked Him for His everlasting love and mercy and asked for help.
He is always here for His children. His hand is never far from us. Even if we don’t see it, feel it or think it’s anywhere near. He is near to us. His word says “He is near the brokenhearted; he saves those crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18 CSB
I love in the Bible when it says, “But God”, because you know something is going to change and it’s going to get good. It’s the same in our lives. When there’s a ‘but God’ moment things are going to change. First I laid down my view and said yes to God. Started looking at what the last thing He told me to do was. And started there. I started getting rid of stuff that was distracting and starting praying for His help.
What do I do, what do I say, how do I do this.
Through all of this I was using my printed out and then both hard and softcover published version of Grateful Faith. Continued giving thanks to God. Seeing in my life how God was being faithful. Emails from an organization I used to be a part of showed up at the right time.
My help comes from God.
God was still leading.
A training site for people like me, starting on an adventure of sharing my passion online.
One step at a time.
Then a special program within that site that broke down each step even more. One small step at a time.
Exactly what I needed. Surprise, surprise, not! “…for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him. Matt 6:8b
He is so patient. So loving toward His children. Each of His children. To you. To me.
And now around four months later, I have an updated site, four blog posts, friends and family on my mailing list and will again begin the verse posts in the next month.
I encourage you…
“What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.” Mark 11:24
It may take a little while. It will take patience. But ask in faith and be watchful how the “But God…” part unfolds in front of you.
Be watchful, give thanks every day for your God’s faithfulness. He is able.
Thanks be to God the father of our Lord Christ Jesus.
Faith in Action: What did you give God thanks for today? Answer in the comments below.